i’m so very tired.. tired of every single aspect of life being such a huge struggle. at no time, in my entire life, have things just ‘fallen into place’. everything has always been a struggle. all of the current stress has worn me down. worn my family down. we are mere shadows of our former selves. we are incredibly blessed to have each other, and we are fully aware of that fact.. trust me! however, we are increasingly slapped in the face with our new reality. in a place we no longer feel we belong… hubs in a job that seems to be sucking the very life out of him… living a life we don’t want. we are so very unhappy. there, i said it… i’m unhappy. my current state of mind is that of a trapped animal. i have an increasing anger.. a rage building inside me. truth be told, all i want to do is run away… far.. far.. away.
Tracie, I have been there and done that. Lately, I feel like I'm Baby and someone keeps trying to put me in the corner! I've also had times when the job wasn't right for my Sweetie. It was a very dark time for us. Don't do what I did and pray for help. While our prayers were answered, that "help" came in the form of some worse challenges. Maybe a long weekend and a discussion about where you want to be can help. For me, I've had to come to accept that this is where we need to be right now. I'm trying to find ways to love it here and make it fit, but I'm not going to lie...some days, it's really hard.
ReplyDeleteFirst start is to be honest with yourself about what you are feeling so congrats for admitting that you are not happy and saying it out loud. It's coincidental that I posted a happiness quotes post today. Wish I could help in some way.
ReplyDeleteWe went to Thailand when that happened...it was wonderful :) ...like to work...not to vacation...
ReplyDeleteI kind of agree with Sandbox, you've done the first step, you've acknowledged that things aren't good. What can you do to make them better? I bet there is something, start with the very smallest thing, and get that sense of movement in the right direction.
ReplyDeleteTracie, first let me say thank you for the birthday wishes, then let me say I could have taken your blog post today and put right in a post on my own blog. Well sort of..I'm not unhappy...I'm just unsettled. My hubby HATES his job (it's a life sucking one too...with VERY mean bosses in multiple coutries!) and I can't be happy when he's so unhappy. We don't see an end in sight, but feel God tugging at us and we don't know where he's tugging us to. Does that make sense? I'm glad I came over here today...glad to know I'm not the only one wanting to run far far away. :)
ReplyDeleteHoping we both figure it out soon.
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Missy
Yesterday I read a quote somewhere that said "some days just surviving is a victory" and I had to keep repeating that to myself for the rest of the night. Then we had one of those terrible night where everyone's fighting. Then I went to bed early. Today's a new day! I'm still going to be saying that quote over and over again though...
ReplyDeletewow. I'm so so sorry to hear this ... Though I can definitely understand your struggle. Hubs and I have had QUITE the hand dealt to us the past few years and some days I want to throw in the towel. I know it sounds cheesy but sometimes I fake it till I make .. to the end of the day. Just slapping a smile across my face {even if its fake} sometimes helps.
ReplyDeleteI do hope that things get better for you!
xo::Lauren @ tickled.
I am so sorry Tracie. You have had to make HUGE life changes over the past couple of years and I have no idea how you have handled it. Just know that all of our thoughts and prayers are with all of you! LOVE YOU GIRLIE!
ReplyDeleteTracie I'm sorry you are feeling so unhappy right now. I hope that venting on your blog has given at least some temporary relief from the pressure building up. I'm new to your blog so am not familiar with your past but life truly does suck sometimes. It is good to express it, I'm not a believer in pretending everything is happiness and light all the time. We need to express all our negative emotions too.I hope that you can find ways to improve your situation and improve your daily quality of life.Acknowledging there is a problem and dealing with it is healthy and I wish you better times soon.
ReplyDeleteUgh- This breaks my heart to read. Sometime I'm not sure keeping up with blogs helps when you're feeling so crappy, because for the most part, people project the positive. It can seem *only you* have junk in your life. You are not alone. I don't have the same urge to run away, but I do wonder why certain aspects/people are such a struggle. Sending prayers for wisdom your way,
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Tracie,
ReplyDeleteI just wanted to let you know that I'm thinking about you and am praying for you! Trust me I can understand where you are coming from. Take care now!!
Every word you typed seemed as though you are speaking my words. I hope things turn around into a life that you want and makes you happy soon...and I'm hoping the same over here. I think its a rough time for so many people right now for a myriad of different reasons. Keep your head up!
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www.heatherluke.blogspot.com
Bless your heart! That is a hard place to be! I was there a little over a year ago. Your admission reminded me of when I finally told someone how unhappy I was at home. Hang in there, it does pass, wish it could pass in a snap of a finger though!
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